This morning I had a dream about my mom. I dreamt that we were standing on the porch of my childhood home getting ready to get into my car which is funny because I didn’t own a car when I lived at that address. so my mom and I start down the stairs to go get my car and I said to her you know you’re dead right? She said yeah I know but as long as you remember I’m still here. I don’t know if I responded or if we just continue to proceeded toward the car but it didn’t seem weird or anything in the dream. Then I looked at her and noticed just how good she was walking. and in the dream I was thinking wow look at her walk! If you knew my mom you know that before she died she wasn’t walking too good. She had pretty bad neuropathy in her feet from the side effects of her chemotherapy and she also had developed some really bad shortness of breath from the lung cancer. so she was using a walker and in the dream she was walking perfectly normally to the car. I woke up and I felt pretty good I actually didn’t even think about the dream right away not until this evening.
I’m not a person who believes that when you die you automatically go to heaven that’s not part of my belief system. I grew up Seventh-Day Adventist and pretty much they believe people are just kind of at rest until Jesus returns. So I don’t believe that my mom came to me in a dream or that it was her spirit or anything like that. but I do believe that God can use our dreams to help us and that he might use the image of familiar person one that is comforting and one that you trust to guide you or to encourage you.
So I think the dream was just God’s way of giving me some encouragement. It was a reminder that I am not alone,that my memories of my mom are stronger than ever, and that I don’t have to hold on to unnecessary items in my home to keep her here. If I have my memories she is with me. I think God gave me the dream for encouragement for me because it really has been a very lonely few months without her but it’s important for me to really focus on those who show up for me whether that’s in person, an email, a text a call, or in whatever way that they do it. It is important for me to really focus on those people who are showing up for me and being there for me so that I can remember that I am not alone.
For the record this did not start out as a blog post. When I thought of the dream yesterday evening I wanted to preserve the memory because it made me feel nice and close to my mom. So I started dictating it into my phone’s memo section. But then it occurred to me that I know several people who have recently experienced a lost. Maybe God also gave me the dream so that I could remind others that they are not alone, to focus on the people that show up for them, and that their memories keep their loved one with them.